that id refer to intoxication. (lyrics by boys likes girls)

last night. i was girls night out :) tht was funnnn. extremely fun.
then i saw . . . this! how kewl. i mean imagine. several girls lining up for the cubicle. and there u are. writting. about. welll. whatever u vandalise about. haha :)

still cool. gives entertainment . maybe growing up from an asian country, the toilets are too disgusting (excluding departmental stores)  for anyone to write on the wall let alone touch it. while high end places u wont find anyone with the gutts to graffiti-size the place.

i just had to enalrge it:) u must be really wondering what was i thinking. taking such a pic:) but hey! i was entertained.

us. ONIELS though nearing a chain of food stores. type of corporation. was YUMMY TO the tummy.

see the WAFFEL ahah tht was our startes:) along with everyhitng else. super fun.

if theres anytime of my life tht id need pills or go all alcoholic. it'd be.... UCAS PERIOD!. however. being in such a secludedly thight school. tht wasssnt much of an option. now on the other hand :) alcohol has be.comed easy access. very easy access. if there was anytime ive ever felt sooo low and drunk. its then. and itll never happen again.

my survial kit.
not the book. not the pen. but the thing in the middle:) CHOCoLATE.

something that SCREAMS for attentoin :) see me see me see me???? Jin Lynn LOW kings london. LAW
the closest ive ever gotten to to appearing on the national news paper back in msia.
.... so far .

never really set out my goals, for it to be heard.
i think im a person with heightened expectations, dreams and careers.

ofcourse the normal expectation for any girl, get married. kids.
3 kids. but before that a bigg ass career with loads of cash traveling and ofcourse. the trip to help . the UN? AMNESTY? maybe?

its easy to plan. but it takes dman alot of courage to carry it out. courage. because to actually set out and dare to dream means ud have to be prepared to fail or find out those dreams arent so perfect after all. ignorance issant a bliss . its a mysterious comfort. people keep begging for more. never sattisfied. i knw fit that description perfectly. thats probably why the past relationship did not work out. im demanding. but ill keep demanding. not cause i knw itll ruin my happiness. i knw people are never contented. never will be. it leaves room for improvement. ill keep demanding to further learn. demand achieve goals. i may never have dreamt of if ive never dared dream.

till then. ill leave myself to sleep.

theres this box full of riddles. questions that cant be answered only by the one reading it . each answer differs with the different reader. one things for sure. the anwers will spill out once ur head is shot by alcohols. that was my mistake.

pretty crystals and white snow is ESSENTIAL! for xmas!. no snow? atleast fake it. i hope to buy fake show spray. hope. not will. just hope. haha but my rooms to small to decorate already!.and where am i gnna even spray it? hmmmm :) still working on tht problem. i think im totally living in a world of randomness.

the reall pain of clubbing is its aftermath. tired. stinky. and u wished u never spent so much on somehting that makes u feel dizzy. - but we 'd do it all again -

impossible to understand the human mind.

k offf to PUBLIC LAW ESSAY!.

LIMITS TO PARLIAMENT SOVERIGNTY ... anyone?

first the emo shit.

the perception of winter. ligts. dazzling lights. one that makes u feel like a queen.
snow. snow flakes. i wished it snowed last yr in shrewsbury during xmas ( if i ever was there in xmas)
i wished i owned a house. a fire place and really dim lights.lots of warm carpet. a big sofa. reading hot choclate. dinner. roast chicken. id write dabb my hand across the frosty windows, writting poems. maybe a list of words things i want.

walking up small shops. hidden in the corners, up the streets. lights dangle down. another world.

thats what i dream of walking the streets.the one moment of my year. i travel into another place. everywhere's the feeling stays. a place to forget. a place to run.

i remmebr ,last march ??? i tink. my winter wonderland. snow was sooo heavy. it was gorgeous. having actually seeing somehting soo beautiful right infront of ur eyes, sights only seen in pictures with high end cameras.

makes me believe miracles arent so far away. 

------------  now --------------- 

2 slices of melted cheese in my tummy yum yum. wont really help with tmrs outfit tho.
its past the 1 week seasoning. of my clothes. time to wear :) haha. not as if theres a rule. so far.

prison break season 1 has been good. season 2.. going down. but by far season 3 was not the same let down. in fact. season 3 episode 7 WAS JUST SOOO GOOD.

heroes on the toher hand. is as colourful. powers. tension. excitement.  season 1s still better. ill still watch.

I rember the 2005 during my SPM, Desperate housewives came out. boy was iT MY FAV., then season 2 it wassnt as good. so was season 3. but the latest season was good.

my point? all season 2s suck. why? because humans have this unquenchable thirst. we are NEVER CONTENTED. season one being the BOMB. we'd expect a diff turn. but if say it really does change. we'll say its going out or story. or its getting weird. hell i knw im like tht. im just saying... FIND ME A BETTER season 2!

   http://www.kcl.ac.uk/phpnews/wmview.php?ArtID=2160

im proud. my public tutor used to teach at oxford. my contract tutor a cambridge harvard (masters) graduate i didnt ask about my crim. and half of the lecturers writes half of the text books we all use :)

half maybe an exxageration. but like my contract lectureers etc. ive seen their books. im currently borrowing public law lecturees books. i dunno maybe ive never met an author of a book b4. let alone imagine them teaching me.

is full of PORN!

omgawd!!!! i cannot begin to GUSH!!! ABOUT THE SICK SICK things... tht goes onnn

like since i was here. theres this constant banging... but i paid no mind... I MEAN.. i though it wassss furniture mooving.

untilll one night. teng overnight. and the noise came............ then she -i cant remember exactly- but said somehting like- "they are "doing it ah"

lol. then i realised.... OMGAWD....

thts nt the case. LAST NIGHT! omgoshhh. right after i turned the light off...
the constant banging.... mmoving of furniture.... constant stop... constant.... stop...
then the SOUNDS CAME!!!!!

!@#%$@^%%$&$%&^%$&@$%

:)

   HAPPIER note. :) PAWS ROOM LG :P    

HAVING class right after this, eating breakkie now.
got my student oyster today.. ABOUT TIME. but i got it vr fast. online. i applied tuesday??? got it thursday!!!! FAST WHEH! faster than MAIL and u save tht pound (rounded up) on 1st class post.

life's never too short i believe its just enough.
niways. im done with the crying, feeling pathetic-ness and loneliness.
im happy. im actually very very happy. happier than ive been in the few months.
i shant bother to complaine about the pass, i dont even think about it.  
but dont expect me to be all nice to you. its too fake. not because i still have feelings, -cause i dont- .but because its not worth the drama and crazyness after that. sunday. i let it all out. no more thoughts. no more what if's. its all gone. but i dont thank you that day. and i apologise for giving you my apologies. cause i dont think you deserve it. not after sunday. these would probably be the longest last few words left to you, if u ever read it.

when i die. i want a box of guylians in my hands, a few happy hippos, but the sweetest thing ill hold on to would be my photos of the past. baileys too.

 I dont. really post lyrics.

but  i dont know which suits who's the situation more. its just good.

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

YES... ONE REPUBLIC. APOLOGIZE. love :)

 been having mac.D crave. really yearnnnn for it :)

i dont konw why. bu

t im suddenly slooowly addicted to their friesss. usually dont eat'em.

dim sum tmr!!!! *Cross fingers* really hope i wake up. +   shopping

WARNING

contents below contain media thts all about ME! so. its bound to get really dry. if ...

a. u're not me

b. u dont really care about ppls lives. just the scandalous ones

c.u love reading about scandals.

d. u're not me :)

i think bloggers should do tht u knw. save half the people time. from scanning bloggs. like i knw what i wanna read in a blog. scandals... scandalss. and GOSSIP. loads of gossip. if not. jokes. and stories. not. selfcentered remarks and exaggerately "happpy" timetable of the week of a person. both of which i tend to inflict on my bloggg. at everychance i get. i do it. but does not mean id read it :P

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reading weeek's been soo crazy. have not really done much. so. sitll trying. if predicted right sunday grocery shopping. and the whole day to lock in. finish contract law. just contract law. thts all. 1 request.

- meaning ill play from tonight to sun morning :)-

    a dman good reason to test my lG VIEWTY really love it!!!! its like i just cant take my hands off emm.. literally. thts probably y i wassnt tht productive these days. kept checking using using. ahha. alsooo. the camera's the bombbb. making matter worst. i spent the whole of last night/morning (slept at 5) fidgitting. desperate housewives-ing. phone glittering. lol. thts probably the first time in weeks ive actually gotten time away form the stress sickness sadness and shittyness to just sit my lazy ass down to do nothing. the nothing which left me sleeping at 5.

i have discovered a new love. PRET's CRUNCHY CARAMEL CHEESECAKE. its GOOOD! sooo good. especially on the run. or going to the library. its soo goood!!!! i deffinietly have been having loads of eating disorders. last sat sun, i coulnd put anything into my mouth. now im stuffing any/everything! in!!! argh.nt eatinggggg 4 tmr!!!! SHOPPING!!! GOMAWD SINCE LIKE 1.5 MONTHS?!!?!?!?! SUPER SUPER SUPEEER EXCITED. but, then again. i should tell meself .. its gnna suck.. no sales etc. cus everytime i work myself up. ill end up dissapointed. so its only the times when i actually DONT expect to shoppp im sooo very productive. or should i say compulsive!.

have been saving ALOT! so ideserve to buy, right? except i just bombed the mank this week. and tonight. alcohol's gnna cost a bomb tooo. arck :S but i definietly need alcohol! toooo long without it. need it!. not an alcoholic but. k ill stop rambling bout shit. i have pictures to upload. but my lazy ass just aint gnna upload em.

hopefully ill get some nice ones tonight!  ahahah NEW PHONEEEEE:)

 *pray i get home DRUNK!* i mean after all the stuff's tht been happening.. work... work.. and EVEN MORE WORK!!!!! but i cant complaine. i chose this path. this time last yr. i was stressed bout nt getting 2 wehre i am. so helll. i have no right to. but i dun care. i still wanna complaine :P

apart from that. NEW DISCOVERY. if im not such a slackker. not a dragger id have tonnns of play tyime. i should start maximising man!!!!. and the dman internet is fridggin addictive. i should stop. should be contract now :P

kkk shall and MSUT read! inorder to play hard!

i WANT IT! i WANT IT I WANT IT!!!

it has the interface of a PRADA. the shape of a chocolate. the look of an ipod.

THE CAMERA OF A KODAK! 5 mp. and the functions of a SONY!. LG I LOVE U!

its gorgeous/!!!! i really hope its not dissapointing.

http://shop.o2.co.uk/tariffs the tarriffs. ts all in all not bad. some say wait 4 xmas. some say its alright. cus, iif i take the 30 punds permonth. its the max i pay a month i think as the O2 LINES are FREEEE for voice call, only in O2 SHOPS. not available form carphone. so its good at tht stage. not mattering how much offers carphone gives out, or is about to give out. it cant beat tht... seeing the fact tht 3/4 of the ppl on my contact list are O2 USERS! but its still the risk.

i was thinking of the 35pounds but thought against. seeeing tht half of them are gnna be free.., wahts the point of getting the 600 minutes one.

another note. FIGHT CLUB(movie) . its weird. its vr vr vr vr vr weird. half the time u jsut wanna close the dman picture. but when its over. ull get the sense of boy. its dman weird. but i dont regret watching it feeling.

dont really have the time to post pics. etc. GOOGLE it urselves. laws a b'tch. so is living expenses. no time for anyhting.

mood: exhausted. knwing tmmorrow is gnna be an even bigger mountain to fight! im such a pigggg

the butter n the choc... the hazelnuts... i love nuts.

haha no thts over.... PLANET TERROR WAS THE BOMB! IT HAD EVERYHITNG a show promises.

apart form that...... i love shows like saw 1... 2... 3.. now comming 4 while i love shows like resident evil..1...2..3.. - predictably a 4the sequal-

dont get me wrong.. i still do love em. cant get enough of em.. but issant tht why i love em so much?? tht i cant get enough of em....??? withe the 4th etc.. its begining to make it into a series.... of MOVIES! ahha like harry potter. ! ahnk gawd LOTR ended just when its meant to.

 :)   The price of freedom comes lonliness.

Till then... recently (Wed actaully)  douggie dwnloaded DEATH PROOOOOF!!!!! *perks of blogggin*  haha i was supercited when I got it.it was exactly like christmas knwoing what u cant wait for.. but u know what it is :D  lol niways. ill stop gushing . To start offf we went to eat dinner where we attempted to listen and pull our very ear drumms to listen to the lappie ... too soft the sound . soo we or atleast i ended up being satisfied with just the video witself. which made the start alil boring at we didnt knw what the hot chiqs were talking about.lol. but still gave me time to appreciate jsut the graphics.

the thing with Quentin is that he doesnt follow them convetional rules. its vr different, the motion pictures, if anything never looks perfect if not it looks deliberately old :) NIways, one of the bext aspects of the film are the colours, he uses contrasting colourful colours tht really blend the vintage 70's  the soundtrack was alright but its job really made the ambience really really cool.

The start

STARTS WITH THIS!!!.

He's a living genious. also there were parts where it totally killed the 70s mood though, as douggie pointed out. (top) was using a COLOUR SCREENED handphone. in tune with that. her jungle julia billboard had pics of her using the lappie. too high tech

Another critic id make or maybe to some a good thing is tht. .. with quentin he makes his shows original and exciting with... supprises and excitment. also he does things. That works either ways. cause when i rewatch it. it looses its gist easily as i basically am tuned already to the scocks or contrasting dfferences from toher shows. there are some shows i woudl say the more u watch. the more ull like it. that probably cause its too boring the first time. and the more u watch? the more ull find different things u didnt notice the 1st time youve watched it. but a show sooo grippin sooo differnt. sooo colloourfull... ud defintiely remember EVERYTHING u watched right down to the verry end.making the 2nd time u watch.memorisable :)

deathproof with kurt russel

Possibly the most gory scene *which come to think of it.. was kindda lacking from the show*

 other than the fact  (for the guys) that the girls inside are super hot, that they are even super boyish it makes it sexier. is that. a unconventional show, makes the audience expect a possible different ending u konw. and it definiely gives a wide scope for the audience to wonder. no predictibilities.no moral boundaries.I remebering wathicng the show not knowing what to expect... chair gripping really wondering if zoe bell might actually fall or not. etc. its thouse fun shows u know .. using the same theory of oscar wilde, arts for arts sake. The action from the end's vr good. i personalll enjoy shows with qirls who kick asss an actually if u really think about it... it does bring up some moral issues. not gnna mention here thought ... not gnna be a spoiler. watch it.

My personal favourite's the white brunette(left) . though the black brunnette (screen name jungle juila) is really PRETTYLY gorgeous.

Rose mcgowan... the girl witht eh legg gun in planet terror. made quite an appearance tooo... really pretty... only up close :d

 
i like her!!!!! 1 pretty mama. though Dougie thinks shes alil plump. whocares!! she has sleepy dreamy eyes :D

In a nutshell.. id say its not as fast pacedly mind blowing as the trailer. but it was refreshing. Probably it would have been better if id havent gushed... built up anxiety... watch the trailer a thousand times.... wiki google even yahoo it. maybe i expected too much. but who's to say it wassant ectiting. cus it sure as hell was not bad. and im nt complaining. good shows these days are hard to find. this show is somehitgn new. just a few lil explicit scenes. no not porn. loads of swearing and a lot of girls going wild.

oN a contrasting note. Pics collected throught out the week. *permed my hair btw* more wavy than curly thought. layerd the top part. whi is kewl cus then i have the discretion to change form side sweep to spikeey to asian bangs and even long enough to do a fringe bob :D

cheese cake with bothers n daddie. its been along time BAKED cheese cake :D

last-ly. i plan to go fat again this weekend. pack and get my medicdines contact lens pack and ... thts it.. everyhitng in me is scream at me to not put shopping as apart of my planns :( ive burnt alot of cash. feeling guilty. till then.

moode: sudden likeness for dasies lakes medows .the after rain at the lake :)

For those who loved pulp friction to kill bill. and then sin city :)

the following are only applicable if ur mind is excercised to gory morbid possible explicit media.

http://www.grindhousemovie.net/ 

trailer me(click on it)

GRINDHOUSE of planet terror

 and death prooof. i dont think theres any need to even advertise for such productions seeing that tis already publicized enough. but i m soo excited ill do it nayway. brief introduction below to explaine my not soo interesting commentary. its soo orginal so explicit its shocking. I hope itll be as good if not better thaN KILL BILL. since kill bill ive really been looking forward to Quentins next marsterpiece.

http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809264218/info

http://www.realmovienews.com/movies/893

first im really lookinf forward to planet terror more directed by robert rodrigues.its super sexay! not in a lesbo way. but the graphics are sooo 70s cool.+ an added bonus marley shelton , what more the only thing keeping me atleast form my seat is the fact tht its probably not ever gonnna be released in msia. but UK it will!!! woot woot. the trailers HAWT.  i mean the rose macgowan has a bloody gun on her leg!!!! this really required fullly excitement. i really KENOT WAIT!

they even have BRUCE WILLIS back for guest appearences. even FERGIE!!! omgosh. nearly half the casts of sin city make big small screeen appearences.
even naveen from LOST! stars in planet terror. gawd this is gnna be soo awesome

besides the fact tht an actual "Bclass" remake stars big screeen names. besides the fact tht the trailers are exceptionally mind blowing sceenes. IT QUENTIN! uve seen kill bill uve watched pulp fiction.uve seen the sin city collaboration!. now its 2 with 1 . tthis double feature.

hell if you dont knw wat im talking about.
wiki it : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grindhouse_(film)

this maddness is sooo mind blowing tht ill lay out the details . only for peeps in london.

it comes out onthe 21ST of sept in CINEMAS. thats only for death proof

while DVDS!!!!!!! 24th sept. only death proof ... AGAIN.

this really stinks cause WHERES THE DOUBLE FEATURE1?!?!??

I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO PLANET TERROR MORE. i mean ZOMBIESSS and i mena THE LEGGG!!! GUN??? it seems more kick ass than a murdering rampage car (yes in this case rodriguez wins over quentin) but thats not the case. it was supposed to eb a DOUBLE FEATURE. here they are.. depriving me of... THE TOHER HALF. y call it under the grind house feature anyway.????

Definition of grindhouse: a theater showing well explicit movies.(the nutshell)
a more defined answer. lifted from wiki itself.
Exploitation film is a type of film that eschews the expense of "quality" productions in favor of making films on-the-cheap, attracting the public by exciting their more prurient interests. "Exploitation" is the show business term for promotion, and an exploitation film is one which relies heavily on the lurid advertising of its contents, rather than the intrinsic quality of the film.

Exploitation films feature forbidden sex, wanton violence, drug use, nudity, freaks, gore, monsters, destruction, rebellion and mayhem. Such films have existed since the earliest days of moviemaking, but they were popularized in the 1960s with the general relaxing of cinematic taboos in the U.S. and Europe

which gave both directors the idea of having to shows in one. but with only 1 part airing 1st..... and the other (Planet terror around 16th oct 2007) its like split and loosing extra film footage of the doublefilm presentation. wahts the point. itll loose its gist. i now wish i was in the us. BOTH DOUBLE FEATURES RELEASED ON THE 6TH ARPIL!?!??! omgawd. not fair. but who am i to complain. it wont air in malaysia. too gory i guess?

http://www.obsessedwithfilm.com/movie-news/details-of-the-2-grindhouse-dvd-releases.php - for more deatils on the dvds.

the death proof release date's on the 24th NOT 18ths as said :D

TO QUOTE:   "intended to be screened. The films (Planet Terror/Death Proof) have been separated for the UK release due to poor box office performances in the U.S." what the #@$!%$% who r they to judge if its bad or not. its probably poor because its tooo explosive. just because its pooor does not give the right to cut it into 2. i mean COME ONNNNNNN. so i heard shitty explosively advertised shows like the latest james bond movie sucks... how about the grudge suckking soo bad. then theres all the stupid lindsey lohan movies. u dont see they cutting these shows into half or even rippine em offf . aaaah im jsut sooo pissed ill ahve to pay TWICE the pirce to watch 2 shows. also loosing footage of THE BACK TO BACKnesss.  its not cheap u know!. if it sucks sooo bad would they have QUENTIN n rodrigues??? fergie. its just not fair.  i duwanna payy twice... :( yet i will. why??? cus of the trailerss.

it always... comes down the the TRAILERS
AGaIn:) http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809264218/trailer

ill admit. ITS ALWAYS THE TRAILERS. its this 3 minutes of fame glory and promises of what a show may offer... leaving thousands.. if not billions rushing to get the next show.onlly comming out dissapointed that its not as nice. but. somehow.we do it all over again. we go thorugh the same cycle. trailer after trailer. show after show. y? cause we then erase all the doubts, questions and yearning. no matter if it sucks. atleast Ill have to say "yea, ive watched it. sucks tho. trailer's better"

this issant the same thing/ but to those who've seen the trailer. bother to even read this. and if u dont like it. hey atleast it gives u someting to say to me like. boy this show really sucks ass and u have bad taste.dont ever give me anthoer review. or stuff like that.

cus no this show or "double feature" is no where near... maid in manhatten, princess diaries or the note book. nor is it even close to lord of the rings. the only bearing resemblance with LOTR is that directors of both shows are as famous as the shows themselves :D

NO i see only 2ways. starve for 2 days. to save enough cash for death proof or use walking as a mode of transport for 1 months instead of tube or bus.for both death proof and planet terror. i opt for starvation :) im im sooo excited. least if i starve and watch the gory scenes. theres nothign to puke out :D bsides i get lost easily. i need the tube atleast as my mode of transport.

arrrgh i really hope to watch this show atleast itll stop bothering me. another craving answered. soo preeety please let me watch it. and FOR ONCE im finally wathcing a show not bothering about the age restrictions:D. haha. WCW(worst come worst) THE DVD. :D i think ill probably opt for tht. hmmm will see lol.till then. please CHECK THE DAMN TRAILERS

i had the worst experience of traffic jam.... SO FAR ( quote homer)

haha. went to watch the 25 minutes finale fire works... AAAAH.the jam was crazy left at 7pm to catch the fire works at 10pm. left at 1030. reached home at 2am!!!! SHEEET. the fireworks were really nice. but to use ratio. i spend 7 hours on a 25 monute picture. but it was nice hanging with sheik they all. but still.. I COULD  ahve driven to spore... and BCK:D ahhh shoppping.

niways. didnt take much photo seeing tht my camera died on me, 5 minutes after the fireworks started i got toher vdeos frm ppl but they were too looong.

yesterday was sooo exhausting. shen finished UPSR. brought him sushi. tht was sooooo tiring. eating eating n eating. there was once a time id find eating a luxury. just not ystrday. ahah after tht went to pick teng up. then sungeiwang met the girls. went to bangkok jazz :D. went home. ahaha. it was cool talking haveing fun with the girls after such a lonnnnnng time :)

didnt take much photos with my camera though. lol. will update more when i feel like. in a super lazy moood now.i feel like sleeping. but i cant sleeep. its like insomnia without the sideeffects.

GOODNITE.